We all have our ups and downs
And today is a down for me.
Now I know I should be all happy and smiles, being a newlywed and all that, but life, life isn’t all smiles and happiness. We still have the issue with the house. We still haven’t sold the car. I can’t find my tax slip so that I can change my address online. I don’t want to move into the damn house, yet we have to in two weeks and we need to pack and it’s horrible. I have an exam in three days that I can’t find the motivation to study for. I miss my mom. I miss my dad. I miss my brother. I miss having no worries in life except smaller stuff like having to stand outside in pouring rain, waiting for the bus.
I just need it all to work out, ok? That’s all. I need to wake up one morning and know that I have nothing to worry about. I need to be able to let me shoulders down and breathe properly. I need to not have to put on a fake smile and make small talk and pretend that everything is fine, great, super. Because it isn’t.
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May 17th, 2008 at 16:24
Æ tror egentli aldri man kan ha bare small worries her i verden. Ikkje før man e 50, begynt å bli gråhåra, har betalt ned alt av lån og bodd i samme huset med samme naboan og hatt samme hårfrisyre og matchende grilldressa i 20 år. Heck, sjøl da tror æ man kan ha det ganske kjipt.
Æ kunne begynt å liste opp alle tingan du har som e fin. En mann som elske dæ, venna som syns du e heilt fantastisk bra, to pusa å kose med, et sted å bo (sjøl om det e litt issues emd det nu), en fast jobb, og så videre og så videre, men det hende det e godt å bare være dyster og, så æ skal ikkje tvinge frem nokka. Om du treng å skravle så poke mæ. Srsly! Æ dedikere gladeli en solid del av neste telefonregning på dæ! ;)
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May 17th, 2008 at 19:43
Like Hedda says; You have a lot of things to be thankful for, but I know how you feel… About the tax slip: You can order a new one online.
I wish I could help =(
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May 17th, 2008 at 23:53
*big hugs*
May 18th, 2008 at 14:41
Awww, that’s one of the most heartbreaking photos ever. If there is anything I can do, even if it’s just listening, let me know :) *hugs*
May 22nd, 2008 at 22:07
Hedda: Du = best.
May 22nd, 2008 at 22:08
Hanna: Yeah, the problem with getting a new one was that I needed it to change my address, and without the new address a new tax slip would have been sent to the old apartment… Stress! ;) I found it though, eventually.
May 22nd, 2008 at 22:08
Hari: Big hugs right back to you. :) <3
May 22nd, 2008 at 22:09
Mario: It’s much better now - it was just one of those days. :) I miss you on MSN though, where are you? :(